I have been procrastinated these past few days, we are away for almost one week so I had  a marathon reading of all the things I missed, like reading online news papers and etc.

As I walked around the vicinity I have noticed some changes, there are two built stores and there’s a store that closes already,  imagine that it  only happens in one week what more in one month?  Maybe I am going to be lost already, haha. Just a short update about me, I’ll post more when there’s a topic that will blink on my mind.

Hi guys, so sorry if I am not updating here lately. I am so busy these past few days and I seldom update blog nor open Facebook and my email account, we are heading to Mongolia this Friday that’s why I need to tweak all the images that I can tweak before we left as my Adobe trial is expiring soon. So I stopped tweaking or doing some makeover for a while I will continue on August after our vacation,  I am eyeing on preparing a schedule posts, so another task I have to make before Friday comes.

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Well, I cooked chicken tid bits a while ago I mean chicken breast that cut into pieces but someone took my place in the kitchen as he gets annoyed because I didn’t follow his instructions as he said , that is to cut the chicken to small pieces, smaller pieces to him is more smaller than I did, haha.  Better luck next time!

I have been busy lately that I have no more time to open my blog and post, my scheduled post ends the other day on my other blog so I am force to log-in today and blog about something, on what is happening around me. Oh well aside from being busy nothing more, my computer gives me problem keeps hanging out maybe because I am already low in memory, got a lot of pics of everything eh.

As the title says when to say time-out, I declare holiday for myself but dunno if I can follow it. Before I slept today, my eyes is all red as if I have sore eyes, it looks they are over used in front of the computer, so I have no choice but to rest and now I am awake very early in the morning even it is already lunch time, it is still early for me. Haha,

Pookie bear is little angry with me these past few days because I keep leaving food behind until there expiration date, that means more and more food are not allowed here in our apartment, I wonder what would I eat in the next few days if it keeps on happening, I have a packed of buns where which is still more than half and I have to eat it all before it expired which will be tomorrow or else no more buns like no more bread for sandwich. Huhuhu, wish me luck I might choke eating them.

After I lost my writing career online errr I mean opportunities on writing blogs since my blog with PR was deleted and I didn’t received any writing offer I don’t earn anymore, I eventually published my old post from my deleted blog to my blogs which are distribute according to categories so don’t be startled if you think you already read them, they are scheduled post which is so good that I did because I am quite busy these past few days not on writing article but on tweaking templates.

Yes, I design themes for free at first but my friend keep telling me to ask for fee, so I eventually did and the blessings keep pouring, I don’t know if I can make them all. Charot!  Oh well, as I would like to tell story how do I started with this, its not the day for being nostalgic, so I hope I could post on Thursday.

If before I wake up two o’clock in the afternoon now I have to wake up at 10 o’clock in the morning just to continue dropping EC to my frequent visitors,  if before I just log-in to Facebook once to twice a day now I don’t log-in at all, so if you wish to contact me just email me because I also seldom open blogs, haha.

By the way, I am quite busy today. Pookie bear is really annoying sometimes because when he knew you are busy he will make you more busy, instead of frying the chicken breast without oil I have to grill it with the electric grill, it would be fine if I am not going to clean the grill,. so it took me long time to clean the kitchen.

Haist,  just wanna say thank you to Ate Vernz for the untiring support for promoting my designs to her community (I owe you one!) ,  haha and to everyone who promoted it as well, too many to mention you know who you are my heartfelt thank you, I really need bread  as this moment because my father has no job so my mother asked me if I already earned from writing articles, if you don’t know yet all my earnings were send home, so far in my two years of existence in blogging world I earn $300 and a few, lol. So small but its better to have something than nothing, right?

Last Sunday, June 12 is my father’s birthday (Happy Birthday again tay!)  and as usual it is just a normal day. Independence day bring memories to me because  once upon a time I went to school with bruises and marks,   do I need to blame the Philippine miniature flag? Haha!

I am quite busy yesterday and today tweaking templates so I was not able to post something here, as I am blog hopping I have seen some post for color connection, Ate Rose had invited me the other week but I am too busy as we hike to Dobongsan.

So I am taking the chance to join tonight, above are the colorful flowers taken in flower shops along Gangbyeon station. They are so lovey isn’t it? Pick one or as many as you can Ate Rose for your birthday (Happy Birthday).  Yes guys, the mommy blogger is celebrating her birthday so hop in to her blog and greet her  Happy Birthday!

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I am so busy yesterday cleaning here in our apartment and doing some laundry. After cleaning we also undo the bathroom sink because it was plugged the water is slowly going down. We’re like a professional plumber eh, after finishing it there’s a lot of mess in the bathroom floor, molds are everywhere just so lucky the  Tile floor installation is smooth it is not bumpy like in our old apartment.

I also like our bathroom tiles and wall because it is all white so you know if the bathroom  is dirty or not, our old apartment tiles is not this good, it looks like made out of bricks what I mean the color resembles like the color of bricks so it is hard to tell if it is fully clean or not plus it leaves marks on my bathroom slipper so  when I brought my bathroom slipper here the brownish color was transferred to the white floor just so lucky that bleach helps me to remove it.

After cleaning our apartment and unplugging the sink I have to go to the store to buy olive oil for our supply then after it I washed our bed cover and clothes, it won’t fit into the washer so I need to do two loads. That makes me busy yesterday.

I have nothing to complain here in our new apartment aside from our window doesn’t have any curtains at all. So it’s bright here in the morning and in the evening because the garage is just beside us. The window too is facing our bed so I don’t know if people can see us here from outside, the glass window has an art style and thick too. So I guess they can’t see us inside on what we are doing except if they really intended to peep.

My husband and I is planning to buy a curtain but the problem is we don’t know how to wear it in our window without making a big fuss on it plus to tie it every morning, so as we looking for a perfect curtain online we have found that there is  made to measure pleated blinds that make us change our minds. Blinds are easy to manage than heavy curtains you can just pull the string if you want to fold it and for sure you cannot make blinds as wiping cloth for hands like what is it usually done in  curtains when someone is lazy to look for a dry cloth.  The good thing pleated blinds has also a selection of colors and  I can’t wait to have one maybe creamy white will be just right.

I am not around with these blog yesterday, I just don’t feel like blogging anything my lazy mind strikes again. Oh well we sleep five o’clock in the morning today and I wake up at two o’clock in the afternoon, I did not sleep well though I keep waking up and coughing there’s one time too I wake up with my noises, yes dreaming again I cannot remember what is it all about.  While typing this I have not eaten my breakfast yet maybe later, it is holiday on Monday here so if the weather is good we are going to hike again.

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I hope I am going to feel better on Monday because I feel so week yesterday and he even feel angry many times to me for not paying attention spotting him in the gym. Darn it is too hot inside the gym I thought I am going to have a heat stroke, I wonder why they did not run the aircon and just the two big fan maybe saving electricity. Oh well there’s more foreigners in the gym not like before just the two us, there’s around 6 excluding us but I seldom see them now lately. We have no plans for today just be busy in front of the computer again, surfing, blogging, hopping and watching movie.

Oh well it’s Thursday today, day for nostalgic past. I really have nothing to be nostalgic I mean no specific photo, as I am always forgetful I am in kind of feeling of devastation, hatred to myself and etc., guess what? Well it is still nostalgic because while digging into my photos something reminds me to check.

I have mention many times I am have been busy downloading my photos from Friendster, so I have deleted the albums once I am done downloaded them to avoid confusion but there are some albums I have deleted without downloading them thinking that I have a soft copy in my computer, especially those photo taken here in Korea and few photos taken on our wedding day which is not too clear as they are taken by a not so good phone but the fact that is memories it is very important.

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So I look to my folders and I can’t find copy of those photos, it feels like I wanna pull my hair.  I am so darn dork and last night too I am looking for my the word document of my Anything and Everything blog as I copy them online then all of sudden I can’t find them then I remember I have deleted few files the other day to free space and I can’t remember if they are included, I am really disturbed last night that I don’t want to go to sleep, as I am adding those blogs to my other blogs. You know I got another idea, that is to scheduled post. Yeah, my blog post are scheduled except in this one of course.,

In my age of 24 I already have memory loss how much more when I am already in my thirties, huhuhu. Darn I guess I need to eat a lot of clams and shells to help me gain memory. Oh well, I have find the word document because the moment I wake up I started browsing all my folders but the fact that my  photos are still missing in action makes me say “Ihhhhh” so angry. I have mailed the box to Philippines today with the help of Pookie bear as I can’t carry it alone, and another memory loss occurred.  On the box I wrote our address without the Province name as I forgot about it  I just noticed it when I check it, but I can’t add it as there’s no more space and today in the postal office, I forgot to write our city’s name on the paper.  Lol!

By the way, I am little sick right now, it looks like the big bear transfer his colds to me. He is so happy that he is feeling well and keep telling how he feels good right now. Lol!

Life is all about what…? It is all about surviving no more no less.  If you want to survive, struggle. Haist by the way I am not going to write anything fancy or serious, just want to say I feel depressed last night, I feel lonely and selfless. I am longing for friend, for laughter and fun.

By the way as it is Thursday today I am going to open the old pages of my life,  as what you have read on my previous blogs I am victim of bullying on my younger years, so trusting someone those times is not that easy. My mother keeps reminding me if I can stand alone  in my own be it, I don’t need friend to teach me to escape classes or always going somewhere for happenings.  So I befriended with people who can’t afford to waste their precious time by strolling in town during weekends as they can’t also afford to waste money if it is not needed. So instead of being friend to my old classmate on my grade school I ended up being friend to silent people which is far different of talkative me.

I got three friends, for me they are my closest friends until one time I just awaken they are taking away from me by our classmate who had a serious fight with one member of her group, as she is also the so called classmate of my other friend during their elementary days. I just wake up one day they are  out of my sight, I just find it out they are so busy following the commands of their master, plus  one  of our friend also find a group in the lower section that  she will enjoy most  during lunch break playing with guys I guess,  so I have no choice but to be find another company I became friend of everybody no more group of friends, just friends.

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I don’t know else what happened but we had a so called reunion before our high school graduation,  we eventually realized that we are the original group of friends before other friends came along, so just the four of us went to L’s place as they have not so large field of turnips and they are near the river, so we planned for a swimming. I didn’t ask any permission as it is not going to happened in weekend plus I know my mother will not allow me, it was the time where all you need is to have clearance signed. So we went there, we are happily accepted by her family after sometimes we decided to take a dip to the nearby river, I don’t know how it happened but all I know I am we are  under water struggling to  live, struggling to see a light and land in the river banks. You are right I don’t know how to swim, I just realized someone is pushing me up, so I stop struggling I just go with the flow thinking if I am going to die. After short minutes we see each other in the shallow part of the river throwing up all the water we drink, we almost die the four of us, we have one question on our mind how does it happened? We really can’t remember a single thing, then a fear strikes especially L says the river really took life every year or once a year plus same incident happened to the last batch who graduate that one of them died by drowning.

We are just so thankful that his younger brother was around and a boyish girl which is a local of their place, and we are just so thankful that those two knows how to swim because if not,  in few hours the four of us might be dead. So we trackback how the incident happened with the pieces of recollection from each other, we found out S  is measuring the deep of the water and we decided to help her by holding to each other and then splashed we are taken by her when she accidentally step in a deep part, after that we still manage to laugh as S and L says they are fighting with each other under water, they are punching each other struggling to live as the first one don’t know how to swim like me. And about me and M, she says she can’t swim because I am holding tight to her.

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Our friendship became stronger with that incident until we graduate and choose the path we are going to take  into our future, M and I stick together we took same course, so we’re classmate and friends with our other classmates. While L, we didn’t hear anything from her aside from what her mother told us she went to Manila to her aunt  as she is angry tampo that her parents can’t send her to college, while S (the tomboyish of all) went to different school and took Marine biology then all of a sudden at 18 we heard  she  got pregnant and got married.,

Just few months ago I have reconnected with L, I accidentally I mean eventually find her in Facebook, she just open a new account, I send her a message about how long I have been searching for her and how is she, and so the excited me recommend her account to all of our classmates so they can add her too.  I never received any response from her she just accepted my friend request and nothing less, but I have found out she has the guts to ask our “richie rich” classmates how are they and she missed them.

The fire of excitement dies, she never changed. She is still the same friend I know, who don’t remember me when she is around with people who can help her financially with exchange of being  the “alalay”  like tagatanim ng pechay, tagadala ng kawayan, tagadilig ng plot, tagabitbit ng… and etc at lahat ng may taga..,”

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About  M, after graduation we don’t have a strong communication anymore we just see each other when she went home and she is getting married, she invited me to her wedding but it will take place to other town which is miles away so I can’t ago and then I found out she had a christening with her baby and she never invited when it just happened 1 or kilometers away from our home.  After that I have no more news about her she never bother to text me or whatsoever we eventually ended up a communication in Facebook when I am already here as  she opened up an account which kinda hurt me as well, she first added my sister than me. So when exchange message I told her what I feel she replied she added my sister  so I can add her as she don’t know what’s my account, well it is good excuse. Then when I told her about my tampo that she didn’t invite me to the christening of her baby  but she invited one of our friend (which didn’t go anyway) which is far kilometer away from us, as our barangay is just neighbors (M and I), well she didn’t reply anymore I don’t know if she gets online or what. I didn’t bother to check anymore as I am always hurt, I am a friend who is always out of sight and out of place.

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I also eventually established a communication with one of our college friend too but due too she is not always online just a simple hi and hello and no more, but she is a friend that who don’t let me down, I am Godmother of her firstborn. I don’t know but I am looking for a friend that is so dear close to me like best friends maybe, a friend that will not left me and will always remember me, I am not attention seeker but attention sucker (lol). Haist, I guess this is influenced by reading too much pocketbook during my high school days,. but I guess I can’t have the things I am looking for if I am always a reserved with myself. I am kinda moody eh, there are times I am too talkative and there are times all I want is to be alone, no contact in the outside world, but I want my friends to be there even I am out of sight.

Well it feels like the same way when I am still a kid, I have a lot of friends when I have food, candies and etc., but after they are all eaten I am left alone again. All I want is a friend who will treat me as a friend not because of the things I can offer,  a friend that will remember me  not because of the help I have done but a friend that will treat me as friend even I am cracked egg.  Haha, demanding!

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So last night I am kinda depressed because I feel alone waaah, my blogs didn’t received comments from friends but they are all from spammers. Huhuhu, no one remember me but when I wake up today I found few, so I smile.   I am over, OVER REACTING!  Lol!

Just wanna say thank you for the friends I gained online, I am not the best and I can’t even do better than others all I can say I am here when you needed most, not just money, ok?

Well I think I have  to stop being  demanding of an  attention to avoid depression. If a friend remember me thanks, if she didn’t thanks also. So everybody is happy,well  join us and remember the days when you are still sexy and frail..just click the nostalgic badge below.