I have been dreaming every night lately, and my dream last night is somehow different I found myself with my mother and sister in an abandoned and empty mall located in an upper level, a hill maybe. We are walking and looking around and then I went into a room and I have noticed that the floor is made of glass and will be broken in any minute, being scared that the glass is going to crash down since the mall looks like an old one I immediately grab into a wood baluster trying to get out of the door, my mother who’s outside seeing me struggling to go out, walked towards me and I was scared why telling her to be careful when walking because the floor is made of glass, and they are breaking and when I look at my mother’s feet the glass where she is standing is broken and was just tape together so it won’t crashed but when she stepped the glass just bounced like jelly, meanwhile my sister is the other room beside the room where I am, I can see her because the wall is made of glass as well then suddenly a guard from downhill whistle and coming running toward us, scared I probably able to escape, I’ve seen myself running and trying to  hide in an empty room which looks like more of a school gym, I am trying to climb but I am not able to do it and then I found the three of us outside running down the hill escaping, while running it looks like a wedding was held in the nearby cottage, the guest where coming out and it seems one of the guest was a classmate of mine.

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Suddenly, I found the three of us in a bamboo shade along the street I guess we are able to escape from the guard, it was very sunny and hot outside, I am not sure if we are buying tire black or wanted our motorcycle to be wipe with tire black, while my mother and sister busy talking to someone I’ve seen my older cousin J came in and sit inside the shade, we acknowledge each other and then some motorcycle passed in the street, it looks like they were the wedding guest since I saw my classmate as a passenger of one of the motorcycle, that’s all I remember.

Well, here are some meaning of  glass online, according to have I have read to dream about glass represents tranquility or safety. You could be building a wall around you so that you don’t get hurt in a relationship or other situation. It may also symbolize being fragile, easily hurt or breakable. The thickness of the glass may be an indication of how fragile it is while broken glass may symbolize negativity, broken promises, shattered dreams, disappointments, etc. in life. https://www.dreamscloud.com/dream-dictionary/g/Glass

The appearance of a guard usually means one is being warned to be wary. 2. One is alerted that someone else may need guarding. – http://www.edreaminterpretation.org/guard-2/

A dream of a security guard may point out that someone or something needs protection, or that you have to defend against something. If a guard blocks the way in the dream: maybe you feel that you have to perform a particular task? Has one of the guards warned of dangers on the way forward? Then this can be understood as a general warning to be more careful.

To dream of escaping in a dream means you need to face something that you’ve been avoiding. Escape Trying to escape from someone signifies that we are feeling threatened.It is possible that anxiety or past trauma means we are unable to do anything other than try to escape from the situation itself. http://www.edreaminterpretation.org/escape-4/

To dream of trying to escape a situation or room may represent your eagerness or desperation to change your waking life circumstances. Dissatisfaction with the way things are. Finding an easy way out may not an option for you. Your wish to avoid something unpleasant. Trying to get away from something you feel stuck with. Feelings about consequences being too severe. Avoiding confrontation or a dramatic situation. Trying to avoid a difficulty.  To dream of trying to escape people who are trying to catch you represents problems you are trying to avoid dealing with at all costs. An eagerness or desperation to avoid embarrassment or unpleasant consequences. You don’t want to deal with a problem right now. Negatively, it may reflect a refusal to confront your problems head on. Avoiding having to think or feel something right now.
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Dreaming about being chased may also mean that you are trying to avoid something painful, uneasy or fearful of something. These feelings in the real world can often be expressed in a person’s subconscious through the act of dreaming about it. People who don’t like to confront situations in the real world and run away from their problem may have a chase or fleeing dream. It is always important to ask yourself what you are running from in the dream.

Another weird dream last night, in my dream I’ve seen someone more of an actor being transformed to a gay or woman, I can’t recall the entire dream but that’s what in still to me when I suddenly to use the toilet and when I return to sleep, I dreamed of something again. This dream takes place just right nearby our house. It looks like there will be an event/meeting, people are coming and I was asked to lead the prayer by a Godparent in my wedding (Uncle B) so I did. I started praying loudly and then without my knowing I prayed silently while walking around the people, since they can’t hear me praying Uncle B prays loudly, then I have ended my prayer after him and I’ve seen one older Uncle still head down praying on his own. I can’t recall what’s on my prayer, and then I see neighbours and relatives’ sitting in small monobloc chairs while Uncle B is talking in the front and an older cousin G is holding a box giving out something then he handed out the box to my left where I have found out that the box content are large chocolate bars.  Everybody wants to get hold of the chocolate bars when the box went to someone’s hand, as what I have seen two of the chocolate bars are from well-known brand which is known to be the maker of sweet and milky chocolates. It looks like there isn’t enough chocolates for the people since everyone want one, I wanted a bar too but I am just waiting for it to be given to me, then suddenly older cousin G took the box and says “it will be shared later” then I’ve seen him holding another box full of bottle of good smelling perfumes they look like to be handed out as well and then I suddenly wake up.

Looking online, here’s what my dreams says about:

To dream that you are praying signifies respect, sincerity and humility. You are looking for help from a higher source. You need to relinquish your worries and let go of your old problems and trust that things will work out okay in the end. – http://dreammoods.com; http:// edreaminterpretation.com

To dream of praying represents hoping for the best, or a desire to escape an unpleasant situation. You may be at a loss to know how to react to a problem, hoping that a situation will end positively, or letting fate decide an outcome.

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If one leads the prayers in his dream, it means that he will guarantee something to someone, or it could means that he will borrow money for a term. http://dreamingthedreams.com/meanings/prayer/

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Weird dreams visited me again last night and it goes like this, I went inside a flooded public toilet and there are about two female behind me waiting, the water is clean and the floor is made of white tiles, while I am sitting, two little girls whom I known went inside it looks like there is no stalls in the public toilet since I can see who’s coming in, what’s weird all the people inside the public toilet are female children.  It isn’t clear if I was able to pee or not because my dream hop in being in the river banks,  our high school class were having a camp and we just arrived in the camp house, I went down the river to find a place to relieved myself, I found myself walking and looking for a secluded place and I found  low dark shaft which is very small and pebbled,  sitting I found a small dirty can with water inside and while I am trying to relieve myself two classmates play a frank with me and in my anger I thrown the small can to them trying to chase them but when it landed in the ground it was a bigger can. Afterwards, I found myself trying to return the small can inside; it was very hard because I can’t find a hole or I can’t return it properly.  The shaft I went in, doesn’t even look like an outhouse, it looks like a vegetable plot covered with coconut leaves which are already very old and torn, I have wondered how did I fit in it and while trying to find ways to return the can, three golden yellow dogs saw me and the chasing began in the vacant field, the grains in the field were just newly harvested because the shafts left in the field were yellow in color, one of the three dogs stop chasing me and licked itself, the second one stopped at the first dog but the third dog continue chasing me while I am running as fast as I can, every time I got a chance I picked and throw stones at the dog because if I don’t do it I am going to be bitten any moment which scared me.  When I reached a path that’s where I felt safe and I didn’t see the dog anymore, then I found myself standing outside a bamboo fence of a house the path where I am standing became a narrow street with a few houses made of light materials, I heard some people asking who owns a horse that just came by,  I walked a little and I found myself in a hut where I am seeing a chubby little girl and boy (who are the famous child stars as of today) with an  older male, the older male is playing with the happy little girl and after playing they sleep but in the dream the little girl isn’t his child because he is planning to return or find the girl’s parent the next day, it looks like the little girl just showed up in his hut,  but in the little girl’s heart she wanted to stay in the hut and I got awaken.

Looking online for the meaning of my dreams, here’s what I have found:

To dream that you are in the bathroom relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to “relieve yourself”. Alternatively, a bathroom symbolizes purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically.

To dream that you are in a public restroom with no stalls or that there are a lot of people around while you are trying to do your business signifies your frustrations about getting enough privacy. You are always putting others ahead of your own needs. As a result, you are lacking a sense of personal space. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are having difficulties letting go of old emotions. You are afraid that if you reveal these feelings, then others around you will judge and criticize you.

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Flooding in the bathroom suggests difficulties in releasing your sadness. To dream that you are urinating symbolizes a cleansing and a release of negative or repressed emotions. Depending on your dream context, urination is symbolic of having or lacking basic control of your life. You are literally “pissed off” and not expressing yourself in a positive or constructive manner.

I have found this answer online and I think it is worth sharing as well, The bathroom is a place that in a dream can represent the health and well-being of your mind, body, or spirit—especially through cleansing and releasing of the old, decaying, or toxic elements in your life.

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Playing online games is very entertaining that’s why there are some people who were addicted in it. It is one way to escape reality and live for a moment without a worry, to build a life which is different from the real world.

Well, I have stopped playing games online a long time ago when I realized how time consuming it was, instead of working and finding opportunities online I spend my time for something useless.  But recently, I found myself playing online games again.  It started when I have nothing else to do since the internet connection isn’t good, I borrowed my sister’s phone (originally my phone which I handed down to her since the wifi radio button is already broken), she installed games to this phone to make it useful by downloading apk online through her laptop and then installing it to the phone. I started playing Zombie Tsunami on her phone, at first I don’t know much about the game, all I knew I hate the zombies because they are keep dying and it is hard to manipulate them. Then one day, my sister informed me that I can install any android games into my laptop by using an app that can emulate an android system, it turns out she already had one so I asked for the installer and installed it on my laptop and with her help I have find out how to play Zombie Tsunami, it turns out it has to be played with a mission and it isn’t just a game where you have to run, eat people and avoid obstacles.

Since then, I played Zombie Tsunami and able to achieve several trophy’s in the game but after a while my family, told me to stop playing it because I am becoming a zombie too, my eyes are dropping and the black circle in my eyes are getting bigger than usual. Honestly, I am not too addicted with the game, I just found it very entertaining because by playing I forget my worries and I have no time to think over something.  It consumes my time and it gives me a thing to be busy without sleeping as early as 7pm because when I am playing I can’t track the time anymore, I am not aware what time is it, I’ll just be surprised it is already evening or it is already late in the evening and I only have few hours to sleep.  Playing the game helps me to escape reality and create my own world, a world full of zombies!

Well, I’ve decided to uninstall the game when it is becoming boring and when I am running out of coins to upgrade my zombies, I reinstalled it and I started all over again and this time I tried to play wisely.

Zombie Tsunami is developed by MobiGame, a game that is fun-packed thrill-ride of destruction, excitement and tasty brains!

Dreaming at night is what I have enjoyed the most, it is one way for me to live in the magic realms of dreams to forget what is happening on my waking life, life is also different on my dreams, it has hope and promises.

Anyway, last night I have several dreams but when I wake up I can only recall one dream.  It was a dream of seeing a rainbow, my family was in my dream we are anticipating to see rainbow because we are notified that China will held an event and on my dream China can be seen in a top of a rocky mountain. We didn’t wait any longer, a colorful rainbow was formed in the top of the rocky mountain, and it was very exciting and full of fun. Then, the rainbow started to disengaged because it turns out the rainbow was formed by people holding a colorful lantern, from the mountain top J came flying towards me holding a lantern, and says this words “I want my wish come true” it leaves me startled what’s the wish he is saying, and then I saw myself with my sister and an older female cousin walking and finding the rest of the rainbow, we walked into a street but we can’t see the rainbow anymore because heavy  clouds form covering the rainbow, it looks like we are walking in a river bank because there is a lot of boats in the water, and in my dream I am seeing  sparkling light like electricity bolt  running with in the poles covered by heavy clouds, when I look at the right part of the street I am seeing a green garden which is well taken care of, in my dream  I have a thought that it is a Japanese garden and I have a desire to go there since I have looked at it twice, then my dream ended in confusion.

Looking at the meaning of my dreams online it tends to be positive like what I am wishing it should be, here’s what I have found, to see a rainbow in your dream represents hope, success and good fortune in the form of money, prestige, or fame. The rainbow is also seen as a bridge between your earthly, grounded self and the higher, spiritual self. It refers to joy and happiness in your relationship. Alternatively, the rainbow implies that your troubles are almost over. Good will comes out of your issues. Just hang in there.

To dream about a rainbow is very lucky and brings good luck to the dreamer. The rainbow portends happiness after many singular, unexpected events

A rainbow appearing in a dream is the promise of something better to come. The old story of the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow is so firmly entrenched in folklore that this meaning often comes across in dreams. – http://astrologyanswers.com/dream-interpretation/dream-dictionary/rainbow/

The meaning of clouds in a dream is clouds are inaccessible phenomenon for a person and symbolize the higher power. Previously it was thought that the clouds, likewise smoke and dust are left after divine carts passing through the sky. This association remains valid today. You can try to figure out what the clouds mean. Dreams of clouds can have two main interpretations that depend on other circumstances in the dream. They may mean rise and religious feelings, and may indicate that the dreamer is obscured in his life by the influence of something or someone. Clouds also warn of the possibility of difficulties and dangers ahead.

If you dream that cloud is silver gray, it symbolizes the upcoming end of depression. Big dark clouds predict danger and adversity for the dreamer; while small white clouds are a symbol of gaining peace and quiet after the previous trouble. 1.        Rainy clouds in dream suggest financial ease, goodness and blessings. Dark black clouds in dream are prophetic of hardship, fear and horror.   To see in dream that clouds have surrounded some place around you, then it is an indication of forthcoming knowledge and wisdom in proportion to the darkness and confinement caused by the clouds. – http://www.divinedreams.org/ibn-sirin-dream-interpretation/743-clouds-dream-meaning

While, dreaming of looking at a garden says, if one sees himself looking at a garden, and if he is unmarried, it means that he will meet a suitable woman and get married. If he is married, it means that he will receive joy from his wife equal to that which he received from the garden in his dream. A garden whose owner is known in a dream represents a mosque, a park, people of knowledge, ignorant people, the generous ones or the stingy ones. It also represents a meeting.

A lovely, clean cut garden with everything in it signifies that you are organized, but you have been acting rather rigid towards someone recently.

On one of the three kittens that we found in the garbage pit the smallest one was the one I adore so much, my family named her Jaebeom after the main character in a Koreanovela they’ve watch recently. Jaebeom has a twisted foot but she is a very active kitten who runs and plays a lot but things changed when our dog bit her when she run after the chicken bone I had thrown, our dog thought that little Jaebeom will stole her bone so she become very angry at her. I immediately pick the bleeding kitten, I was in awe because I was just getting the bowls to feed them, my sister and I immediately look for the kitten’s injury but we didn’t find any, the kitten’s primary foot were left paralyzed and was very scared that when we dropped her in the floor she will run quickly to hide her head somewhere.

The incident accidentally happened last night and until today little Jaebeom wasn’t able to eat yet and still scared, so I bought milk powder in the store and force feed her. The good thing her two other siblings take care of her, cleaning her when necessary. I hope little Jaebeom will get stronger and feel better in coming days because she is such a cutie, and she also knows how to play cute in front of a camera.

It is the first Sunday of December, church service started early today since it is also the first Sunday of the month and there will be a church hopping at another town about an hour from our town. When I went to church it is half empty but later on more people came, the scriptural topic for this Sunday is about “Seeking Christ at Christmas”, and the scripture reading can be found in the book of Jeremiah 29:13 which say “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” It is definite promise from God that if we will seek Him, we will find Him. These promises can also be found in the Book of Deuteronomy 4:29 – “But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.” and Matthew 7:8 – “For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”

On reading these verses thoroughly we might noticed that the promises are assuring but we should take note that these promises has conditions, in Jeremiah and Deuteronomy we are ask to seek heartily, with all are heart and great determination while in Matthew we are ask to seek continuously.

Well, I have blogged that I seek for God’s comfort and when I found Him, I found peace and learn to slow down, I learn to control myself, I learned to wait and I found hope that everything is possible, a heart that truly loves doesn’t give up after all.

According to our Pastor says there are two kinds of people in the world, those who seek God and those who didn’t find God. He said it is true that there are a lot of selfish people who are always busy and pretending to love the Lord but they didn’t want Him at all just like King Herod who is mentioned in the bible who wanted to find the new born Jesus. We should not let ourselves to be like a man without a name in the bible, we should be a good Christian who loves one another. Do you have an idea who’s the man without name in the bible? Feel free to comment your answer below.

Children’s birthday are well celebrated over here when parents are can afford to held a party. My older cousin’s G youngest daughter celebrated her 2^nd birthday today and they have a celebration at home where relatives and neighbors were invited for dinner, there is a separate place for my cousin’s visitors and friends, and they’re drinking while singing at the videoke machine they’ve rented.

Well, we just ate and left. We didn’t stay any longer because nobody is left in our home; our father is at relative house, my older cousin G’s father exactly they are having their own drinking session. I have went home twice while everybody is still eating, the first one when I brought my left over food. I didn’t eat all of the food in my plate; I am saving it for rainy days I mean for tomorrow. I have thought if I ate a lot tonight it will be hard for me to digest all the food overnight, I am starting to gain weight again these past few days since I ate a lot of rice again.

The second time when I get ice packs, my older cousin G’s wife requested for an ice pack and I volunteer to get it since my sister is still busy with her food. When I went home our cats were following me in the street especially the three little kittens we found in a garbage pit, it looks like they were already hungry. I have to pick them and brought them home before leaving the house, older cousin G’s house is just across the street.

Anyway, to cut the story short after steaming the rice in the pot I have decided to feed the kittens and I throw a chicken bone to our dog I had from the birthday party but without my knowing the smallest kitten went directly to our dog making it angry so she bit the kitten leaving me shocked by surprised.

Well, while blogging right now I can hear the visitors singing in the videoke machine and I felt like crying hearing the older love songs, I am an old soul.

Rainbows are sign of hope, sign of promise for the great future and to see things with new perspective. In the bible, in the book of Genesis a rainbow appears right after the great worldwide flood. It symbolized God’s mercy and the covenant He made with Noah (representing mankind) not to destroy the world in such a way again.

Yesterday, later afternoon while I am resting I heard the kids outside excitedly shouting “rainbow, rainbow!” I wouldn’t believed at first that they are seeing rainbow because it is sunny outside but I went out to see it, there is indeed a rainbow in the sky. I immediately took photo of it but since I can’t take a good shot of the rainbow so I went in our roof top. My sister who’s clearing the rice grains that were put to dry under the sun, says it is very dark in the other side that’s why there is rainbow it was the answer to my question why there is a rainbow when it didn’t rain at all.

Within a few minutes, the sky went dark like it is going to rain so I immediately took the clothes that were hanging in the clothes wire, while doing it I saw a white dove flying in the sky.  I was mesmerized as it passed in top of my head I just keep looking at it until its gone, then I realized I forgot to take photo of the dove with a rainbow in the sky, it feels like there’s a divine presence when the dove passed by, it was such a divine blessing!

Here are the new kittens we adopted from the street, we are going home from town when we passed by these cute kitten in the garbage pit. My sister initially saw them while driving; we stopped about a few meters away to check but then the kittens started running towards us so I have no choice but to went down and picked them. The kittens want us to take them, they picked us as their new owner.

Bringing them home, made our older cats aggravated they don’t want the kittens  to be near them but after a few days they were already used with the kittens being around and they don’t mind their presence anymore. The kittens are very playful and they run  hyper-actively. The white and smallest kitten of the three has a birth defect, her one foot in the front is twisted just like Monina‘s foot but it wasn’t a problem because she is the most playful, she run and jump like a normal kitten.