Christmas is the season of giving and the season of peace, last night the church held a Christmas Cantata participated by the kids and young people members. They’ve sang a handful of songs, and the adult female church members also shared their talent through singing after the cantata was fellowship and games but since it is getting late the kids are already exhausted so they only lasts after two games, there’s also group games for the adult and then raffle draws. I have bought 4 tickets for the raffle draw, a classmate and friend told me who’s one of the facilitator of the event told me to buy more tickets which replied I am only poor being and I can’t afford to buy lots of tickets, it was unlike her she can afford it, she is the kids Santa Claus this Christmas because she handed a handful of gifts and toys among the kids to share her blessings after the cantata.

And when the fellowship ended, exchanged gift takes place it started from kids to youth and to adults. I have joined adult exchange gift since I can’t be considered as young people anymore. I have been wondering who got my name but it turns out it was my older cousin L, she have told me it took her long time to decide what things she should wrap since it seems I have complete stuff at home, well she ended up wrapping a food container and after the exchange gift is snack time, every zone members contributed for it.

The theme this Christmas is “There’s a miracle in Christmas” and what I need is truly a miracle. The Christmas celebration in the church last year wasn’t like this, they’ve only held singing competition and exchange gifts after the service. Although last year, I didn’t attend the service I have went inside the church for a few minutes, well it wasn’t really inside because I didn’t go far from the church door like I was ready to run any minute when caught loitering around, actually I felt so embarrassed during those time since I have never went inside the church since I came home.

Anyway, I have noticed inside the church that everyone is wearing bright colors clothes in red, green, yellow and blue, it  seems it was only me wearing a black clothes huh?

Christmas parties, reunions and family gatherings are everywhere this holiday season, today my mother and younger sister went to town to attend Christmas party of the Avon beauty center they are affiliated with. They initially invited me to go with them since it was also the first time they will attend a Christmas party hosted by this beauty center but I declined the invitation and stayed home alone. I prefer being alone than with the crowd I have never met, when they left I started cleaning around and took care of our pets, our dog needs special attention because she won’t eat without being spoon feed, so I have to powdered the dog food so she could chew it.

When my mother and sister went home early afternoon, they brought a piece of fried chicken, a small cup of dessert, and a few pieces of lumpia roll for me which I ate pair with the cold rice, they didn’t eat it so they could bring them home. They were also given small gifts as token for attending the Christmas party, my mother informed me that maybe when I went with them I will win a major prize since the number that should be mine won a microwave oven but I explained to her that even though I have attended the said event I could not win since the microwave oven isn’t for me, it was destined for someone else, I have never been lucky in life draws so I doubt I’ll win it.

My dreams are my inspiration, so I created my own world in my dreams. It is a dream after another,  my dream last night is weird as usual. I’ve seen myself and a high school classmate, we are looking in the window of a haunted house which I think the bedroom. Inside I’ve seen colorful pillow, bedding and blankets,  some of them were in the floor where there’s a lot of kittens playing inside, the kittens were looking so happy and I feel great looking at them. Then I found myself behind a door I am carrying our Pastor’s toddler daughter (J), it looks like my classmate and I is planning to go inside the haunted house but I can’t left the place because I have to look after the door so I let her go and handed her the kid so she won’t get scared, I remained outside waiting and then the door open and some students came out running and shouting mixed with fear and joy and I woke up.

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Haunted house dreams are not common. They suggest that part of your life is stuck in unresolved matters. Such dreams are usually an eye opener to the dream. The message they bring is that you need to re-visit certain situation’s of the past and resolve any conflicts or differences. This dream signifies the importance of resolving conflicts, maybe the still weigh down on your capability to move on in life. The impact of such matters may still be felt or at other times, you may have hidden pain in such instances, you may fail to realize that you still hold onto feelings that belong in your past. – http://www.auntyflo.com/dream-dictionary/haunted-house

To see a kitten in your dream represents a transitional phase toward independence. You are ready to explore new things that life has to offer. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes innocence and purity. You are going through a transitional phase and ready to explore new areas of life. Innocence is one virtue that is expressed by kittens. You have a desire to feel good and be loved by those who are important in your life. They also tell that you are being asked to give up something that you love too much and cannot live without. Kittens are also a symbol of sexual fantasies and irrational beliefs that you hold dear. But if you are a woman dreaming about kittens, it reflects falseness, lies, and deceit  – http://dreamatico.com/kitten.html

To dream that the door is closed or locked signifies opportunities that are denied and not available to you or that you have missed out on. Something or someone is blocking your progress. It also symbolizes the ending of a phase or project. In particular, if you are outside the locked door, then it suggests that you have anti-social tendencies. If you are inside the locked door, then it represents harsh lessons that need to be learned. In particular, a door that opens to the outside, signifies your need to be more accessible to others, whereas a door that opens into the inside, denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery. If  you are looking in the window, then it indicates that you are doing some soul searching and looking within yourself. It is time for some introspection.