Days seems goes by so quickly, it feels like it was only Sunday the other day and it is already Sunday today. Today is Pastor’s Sunday and unlike those previous Sundays I sit in the front today beside my grandmother so I could hear and understand the sermon. The preacher wasn’t our Pastor but one of the church well-known member (L), I think she was previously a church president.

The scriptural topic topic was “Courage to Continue” and it can be found in the book of Haggai 2:1-9,  our preacher for today started by giving definition of some words and  telling a story of a well-known writer for being fearful of his family’s future because he think he isn’t giving them the best things that others can provide.  I have learn from our Sunday’s preacher that Haggai is the portion of the Bible where the people became contented in their home and forget about the temple, they become busy living that they forgot God.

Why We are Discourage?

The preacher says the first reason why we are discourage because of insecurity, we compare ourselves to others and we always think that other people are better than we are, secondly we felt insignificant that we are not needed, we felt useless, thirdly we felt unaccepted like we do not belong, we are an outcast and nobody loves us and understood us.  It was indeed true because that’s what I felt, I felt all of them when I was dropped like a hot potato, I felt so discourage that I felt like I have no space in this world.

How to Find Encouragement

We can find encouragement through groups like friends, through getting achievements like masters degree, promotions and etc. and by boosting ourselves and raising our voices but all these encouragement mentioned above are leading to nothing but to camouflage our insecurities in life.

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I was depressed, mourning these past few days for the passing of my nephew in-law. Gladly I have friends that cheered and comfort me up. Like what my old classmate says we can’t do anything because we are all going to die. It only happens Cody’s time came first, someone says I should stop acting strange and don’t get so affected because I never met him. I just can’t stop it, he was a family. Thinking how sad and depressed her immediate love ones made me down as well. I am not just too vocal with my feelings I don’t say what I felt I wrote it.

One night I asked God for a sign if my nephew in-law is already on his hands. He gave the sign right away and I found solace and reason to let go. Words are not enough how I felt sorry for his family’s loss.

Happy Journey to you Cody! May the love of  God and everyone who loves you will guide you on your journey, and may the love of God will comfort your family through this difficult times! #praying